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PART 6 "aku buntu. mana lagi nak lari ni? Ya Allah, jika ini jalan yang terbaik berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk menempuhinya ya Allah." rintihnya dalam hati. Dia kesal. Dia menyesal. Betul-betul menyesal. Dia tak patut bersikap terburu-buru dulu. Kalau tak benda ni takkan terjadi.Tapi semua yang berlaku bukan di atas kehendak dia. Sudah memang takdirnya begitu. Dia langsung tak berniat untuk menyakiti mamanya sebegitu. Sekarang seluruh keluarganya membennci dia. Pandangan sayu dilontarkan ke arah seorang kanak-kanak perempuan sedang bermain dengan ibu dia. Perit sungguh rasa hati ini. Dulu, dia seperti itu. Ada mama yang penyayang. biarpun tanpa papa di sisi, dia dengan mama tabahkan hati untuk terus hidup. dia tahu bahawa mamanya telah berusaha sedaya upaya menyembunyikan rasa sedihnya. tapi, mengapa dia tidak menyedari perkara ini 9 tahun yang lalu. jika tidak... argh. sedarlah hana, hidup ini hanya sekali. once and ever. "Nah!", aku tersentak bila ada orang...

not the real baby yesterday, my father got a call from my sister saying that daughter of my cousin had died because of asthma. know what? she's only one week old. she's just being born to this world several days before andthen she returned again. The pains that her parents felt cannot be described in words. I felt so sad. But I know, Allah loves her very much. Suddenly, I envy her because she doesn't have to face the cruelity of this world. In the sametime, I am happy being born because I can see how much my mother loves me. I hope her soul is being blessed by Him. Amin.

It's our party we can do what we want (no drama) It's our party we can say what we want (Mike will made) It's our party we can love who we want We can kiss who we want We can sing what we want It's our party we can do what we want It's our party we can say what we want It's our party we can love who we want We can kiss who we want We can sing what we want Red cups and sweaty bodies everywhere Hands in the air like we don't care 'Cause we came to have so much fun now Bet somebody here might get some now If you're not ready to go home Can I get a "Hell, no! "? (Hell no) 'Cause we're gonna go all night 'Til we see the sunlight, alright So la da di da di We like to party Dancing with Molly Doing whatever we want This is our house This is our rules And we can't stop And we won't stop Can't you see it's we who own the night? Can't you see it's we who 'bout that life? And we can't stop And we won't ...

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag Drifting through the wind, wanting to start again? Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin Like a house of cards, one blow from caving in? Do you ever feel already buried deep six feet under? Screams but no one seems to hear a thing Do you know that there's still a chance for you 'Cause there's a spark in you? You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine Just own the night like the 4th of July 'Cause, baby, you're a firework Come on, show 'em what you're worth Make 'em go, "Aah, aah, aah" As you shoot across the sky-y-y Baby, you're a firework Come on, let your colours burst Make 'em go, "Aah, aah, aah" You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe You don't have to feel like a wasted space You're original, cannot be replaced If you only knew what the future holds After a hurricane comes a rainbow Maybe a reason why all the doors are closed So you could open one that leads yo...

Say you're sorry That face of an angel Comes out just when you need it to As I paced back and forth all this time Cause I honestly believed in you Holding on The days drag on Stupid girl, I should have known, I should have known [Chorus:] That I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale, I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet, Lead her up the stairwell This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town, I was a dreamer before you went and let me down, Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around Maybe I was naïve, Got lost in your eyes And never really had a chance My mistake, I didn't know to be in love You had to fight to have the upper hand I had so many dreams About you and me Happy endings Now I know [Chorus:] That I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale, I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet, Lead her up the stairwell This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town, I was a dreamer before you went and let me dow...

[Sia:] You shout it out But I can't hear a word you say I'm talking loud not saying much I'm criticized But all your bullets ricochet Shoot me down, but I get up I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose Fire away, fire away Ricochet, you take your aim Fire away, fire away [Chorus:] You shoot me down but I won't fall I am titanium You shoot me down but I won't fall I am titanium [Sia:] Cut me down But it's you who'll have further to fall Ghost town and haunted love Raise your voice, sticks and stones may break my bones I'm talking loud not saying much I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose Fire away, fire away Ricochet, you take your aim Fire away, fire away [Chorus:] You shoot me down but I won't fall I am titanium You shoot me down but I won't fall I am titanium I am titanium I am titanium [Sia:] Stone-hard, machine gun Firing at the ones who run Stone-hard as bulletproof glass [Chorus:] You shoot me down but I won't fall I am titanium You shoot ...

[Verse 1:] What would I do without your smart mouth? Drawing me in, and you kicking me out You've got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down What's going on in that beautiful mind I'm on your magical mystery ride And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright [Pre-Chorus:] My head's under water But I'm breathing fine You're crazy and I'm out of my mind [Chorus:] 'Cause all of me Loves all of you Love your curves and all your edges All your perfect imperfections Give your all to me I'll give my all to you You're my end and my beginning Even when I lose I'm winning 'Cause I give you all of me And you give me all of you, ohoh [Verse 2:] How many times do I have to tell you Even when you're crying you're beautiful too The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood You're my downfall, you're my muse My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues I can't stop singing, ...

I can hold my breath I can bite my tongue I can stay awake for days If that's what you want Be your number one I can fake a smile I can force a laugh I can dance and play the part If that's what you ask Give you all I am I can do it I can do it I can do it But I'm only human And I bleed when I fall down I'm only human And I crash and I break down Your words in my head, knives in my heart You build me up and then I fall apart 'Cause I'm only human I can turn it on Be a good machine I can hold the weight of worlds If that's what you need Be your everything I can do it I can do it I'll get through it But I'm only human And I bleed when I fall down I'm only human And I crash and I break down Your words in my head, knives in my heart You build me up and then I fall apart 'Cause I'm only human I'm only human I'm only human Just a little human I can take so much 'Til I've had enough 'Cause I'm only human And I bleed when...

[Verse 1] I've never seen a diamond in the flesh I cut my teeth on wedding rings in the movies And I'm not proud of my address, In a torn-up town, no postcode envy But every song's like gold teeth, grey goose, trippin' in the bathroom Blood stains, ball gowns, trashin' the hotel room, We don't care, we're driving Cadillacs in our dreams. But everybody's like Cristal, Maybach, diamonds on your timepiece. Jet planes, islands, tigers on a gold leash. We don't care, we aren't caught up in your love affair. And we'll never be royals (royals). It don't run in our blood, That kind of luxe just ain't for us. We crave a different kind of buzz. Let me be your ruler (ruler), You can call me queen Bee And baby I'll rule, I'll rule, I'll rule, I'll rule. Let me live that fantasy. [Verse 2] My friends and I—we've cracked the code. We count our dollars on the train to the party. And everyone who knows us knows that we're fin...