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Assalamualaikum. Semalam. okay bukan. pagi tadi. aku dah mula nak ajar diri tak nak tidur lepas subuh tapi takdi rasa badan penat sangat. maka terlentoklah aku. siap berbungkus dengan kain sembahyang lagi. lepas solat aku terus bergolek. nikmat woo. Dan dan aku termimpi. awal2 tu macam best je mimpi aku. aku tengah main satu game. dalam mimpi tu aku tengah berlari sambil pegang tangan dengan sorang lelaki tapi aku tak cam sape. hati aku cakap dia handsome. bts taehyung. tinggi cita2. herherher. Sampai la satu game tu kitorang kena karaoke. ha amik kau. tapi hati aku sedang membara so aku pun terus cam okay. ada satu stall. dia macam open karaoke. aku apa kesah. lelaki tu yang nyanyi. aku jadi tukang sorak. lepas tu tuan punya stall tu tiba2 keluar muka miang dia. dah la tinggi macam galah. aku takut. lepas kitorang nak blah tu dia ngan kawan dia pun kejar. cara dia macam nak buat jahat dekat aku sebab perempuan. kawan lelaki aku takdi pun tarik aku sambil lari. syok lari sampai t...

Assalamualaikum.  I've been resisting to say this but could you be more considerate. Despite of all your attention and cares, I've been stuck into debt and unwillingness. Is it me, the one who is ungrateful or you've been taking advantages of past contributions. Now, I'm getting tired. Exam is just around the corner yet all of you still doesn't understand. Why? I know that I might not be the most intelligent person among all. But, I'm trying to give everything I can. Could you be.. for only a month of consideration? Get your child away from me. It's not that I hate them. I love them but things are getting out of hands when they start telling, throwing, grabbing and crushing everything that they see. Please, control them. I'm trying to show my cool side of not caring about everything they do but they keep getting into the way. Living in this house before and after you came in gives a very different vibe. The nervewrecking and annoyance one. I've b...

Assalamualaikum. Lots of things happened recently that makes me reflect so much. I'm an A.R.M.Y. Yes! I do love BTS. I'm in love with their song. They started from the bottom by the debut song of No More Dream. There, they asked us, the listeners what is our dream. Their songs mostly aren't about love or breakups but actually asking us to realise and think again about our dream. Life without dream is lifeless. They went through a lot of hardship and struggles that I think happened to most of the idol out there. I'll be needing hours to complete this post if I'm ever going to talk about this. Basically, I want to express my dissatisfaction. Lots of people who just doesn't understand about korean pop music are throwing tanthrums and so on. "Why do you listen to kpop when you don't even understand it?" I get sick by this type of people. Whenever a korean drama or movies pop out in television, they get criticized and the plastic surgery issue...

Assalamualaikum. Don't you think that.. nevermind.

Assalamualaikum. Hari ni aku ada kelas Bio. Cikgu aku nak buat experimen. Pasal transpirasi. Masa nak tutor cara buat tu cikgu aku cam mengeluh la sikit. Sebab pertama kali cuba, jadi. Masa nak tunjuk dekat kitorang tak menjadi. Aku pun tersebut, "Sabar cikgu." Nak tau apa? Cikgu tu gelak je. Pelik aku menengoknya. Lepas tu aku fikir balik, agak kurang ajar ke tu? Hmm. Apa komen? Sebab, banyak kejadian yang aku nampak kalau jadi cam tu, orang sekeliling akan tengok pelik. Seriously, I've no intention to become rude or what. It's just slipped through my mouth.

Assalamualaikum. Ini cerita semalam. Aku ada extra dekat sekolah. Macam biasa, ayah aku yang hantar. Masuk pukul 9 malam. Bila nak masuk lorong tu, jam dah 8.58. Aku mintak ayah aku drive slow sikit nak bagi lepas masuk pagar sekolah tu, tepat jam 9. Ayah aku, dia lajukan lagi kereta  tu. Dah sampai, aku cakap yang kena tunggu. Jam 9, terus bukak pintu. Yang paling aku tak sangka, ayah aku pun sama2 tunggu jam 9. Aku rasa dah macam apa entah. Tapi, agak terharu sebab dilayan jugak otak aku ni. Tu je nak cakap. Okay bye.

Assalamualaikum. Tadi aku mimpi benda pelik. Aku kahwin dengan orang luar negara. Hensem weh suami aku. Firasat aku cakap yang suami aku tu orang arab. Best sangat mimpi sampai aku rasa tak nak bangun. Aku balik malaysia, sebab nak terima result spm. Aku pergi nak tegur cikgu, tapi ramai tak layan. Bila orang tanya kenapa aku pergi luar negara, aku kelu. Tak tahu nak cakap apa. Belajar psychologist. Dekat kaherah. Tu yang aku cakap, tapi hati aku cakap dekat Jordan. Aku keliru. Aku biarkan je. Senior aku ramai yang datang dekat sekolah hari tu. Diorang tak kenal aku. Bila tanya aku belajar mana, aku cakap kaherah, diorang buat tak dengar. Macam benda tu benda biasa. Okay. Tak kisah. Now, kawan kawan aku. Nampak macam biasa je bila nampak aku. Aku perlu share bnda ni sebab aku rasa rare sangat. Lagi pelik, aku dah ada anak. Sungguh pelik. Tapi anak aku comel. Sorang laki sorang perempuan. Sulung perempuan, kecik lelaki. Budak tu kecil lagi. Tapi dah pandai cakap. Dekat rumah, ada ma...